It's been around 1 year and 3 months since I've last posted in this blog. I haven't forgotten its existence, it's just that in that time, I have played elsewhere.

At first, I was trying to figure out what I should do for a 'wow, I'm back!' post. The first draft originally listed a lot of the things I was doing *besides* playing Go, but it felt a lot like I was justifying why I wasn't playing, or justifying the tenuki. The tenuki was definitely warranted, I needed to do other things in other places at that time, and I've grown since last year. I could say all the ways that I have, but I don't have the time and I don't feel that narcissistic. :)

There are some things that you remember with a year's passage, such as basic life and death, but the finer points disappear. I stumble sometimes on joseki and fuseki, and don't 'feel' like I read as deeply as I should.

Interestingly enough, sometimes a tenuki is what is needed to grow at the game of go. On a whim last week, nachtrabe convinced me to sign onto KGS to play a game, and even though I lost by many points in an even game, it's possibly the best game that I've ever played against nachtrabe, and he mentioned that I had grown in the year that I hadn't touched a stone. This is after no preparation, just being thrown into a game.

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Does this mean I'm back on KGS for good? That has yet to be determined. I may sign on tonight, or I may not. I have many things that I'm doing in my life, and I try to schedule in as much as I can. There are some thing that I can't neglect and need to keep the ball rolling on (personal projects mostly). I may have the time to be on tonight, or I may have the time and the courage to show up spontaneously at a go club tomorrow. My Go playing is one of the things that's up in the air currently.

Besides, I need to think to myself: is it wise for me to spend my attention on Go now, or should I play elsewhere?